Thursday, December 8, 2016

The Sound of a Broken Heart

Making new friends isn't easy. Keeping friends is even more difficult. Putting it all out there, trusting, having faith in another person, it's all very confusing and takes work - sometimes a lot of effort, sometimes very little effort. Loving someone, on the other hand, seems so easy for me, though.  I'm not talking about being in love, or falling in love, with someone. Just loving someone, wanting nothing but happiness, joy, peace and love for them, no matter where they are in life. When people treat you like crap, it's not because they love you. Sometimes it's not even personal, this is just the way they treat people for whatever reason. Regardless, this can be a hard pill to swallow.

When I give someone all of the love that I can and they turn away from me, often it's because they don't feel worthy of the love that I am giving them. They don't feel that they deserve to be loved; instead they feel that they deserve to be treated like crap by someone that doesn't love them. It breaks my heart every time, not for my sake but for their sake. My heart breaks for them and I cry tears of sadness for them, that they are in such a state of mind that they are not accepting of and open to receiving love. I'm not asking everyone to love me in return. I'm asking them to love themselves and know that they are worthy and deserving of the love that I am, and others that respect them are, willing to give them.

I was listening to the radio today and a song by Brandi Carlile came on - The Things I Regret. I found the words to this song moving and they gave me a new perspective about something. In particular it was the following lyrics:
But I keep pressing forward with my feet to the ground, for a heart that is broken makes a beautiful sound.
So often we try to get over, ignore or forget the painful emotions that we experience, one being heartbreak.  The lines above from Brandi Carlile's song makes me think of embracing the feeling of a broken heart, listening to the sound of your heart no matter the state of your mind. A broken heart can be painful but it can also be empowering, mind-opening and hold valuable lessons. These lines spoke to me today when I heard them and I hope that they speak to you. Hear the sound of your broken heart (or your anger, sadness, frustration, confusion, etc.) and listen to that sound. That sound will guide you to a happier state of being, though it might not feel like it at the time.

Love has no limits.
Love is never-ending.
Love is all encompassing.
Love knows no boundaries.
Love shows no shame.
Love is. It just is.

Monday, December 5, 2016

Shout Out to the Sensitive People

I've come to realize, and stubbornly accept, that I am a sensitive person. This is not something good or bad, negative or positive; it just is. I can't change that I'm sensitive but I am learning about ways to manage my sensitivity, just like I've learned ways to manage my depression and anxiety. It's like potty training, for your emotions.

Most of my information these days is gleaned from Facebook, much to my dismay. I realized today that I've saved quite a few posts on Facebook related to being a sensitive person so I thought that I would share a few links and memes (is that what those are called?) with you here, all in one spot, throughout my ramblings. I hope that you find these links helpful. If any of them are broken please let me know and I will update or remove them.

For all you readers out there that are sensitive, the first step, as with anything else, is accepting that you are sensitive. Embrace and embody that part of you. It can be a wonderful thing and I think the world needs more sensitivity. We are good people! Can I get a WHOOT WHOOT!?

I was, and still am, one to cry over almost everything. It's embarrassing to cry whenever I feel an emotion - happiness, sadness, anger, frustration. It makes it very difficult to communicate through hiccups, sobs and snotty snorts. But there's good news! Crying means you are mentally tough! Ronda Rousey says she cries before every match. I will take that one as a win, for sure!

I have learned that crying is cathartic. It releases a lot of my emotions and after a good cry, either in bed or in the shower, I usually feel pretty damn good. Like I can face the world and conquer whatever it throws in my path. So, cry, I say. Show your tears proudly, just make sure they aren't crocodile tears. No one likes a faker.
Often, sensitive people are introverts (or vice versa) or shy. Knowing whether you are an introvert or an extrovert, or whether your friend is an introvert or extravert can help immensely in relationships and life, in general. Like when you go to a party together, or the bar, or the grocery store, or the newly opened Wacky Wings on a Saturday night.

Introvert Doodles

A wonderful resource for sensitive people is Doreen Virtue's website and books. She offers ways to manage your sensitive energy, chakra clearing, stress management techniques, and assertiveness advice, to name a few. Another great author/speaker is Eckhart Tolle. Overthinking is something that isn't limited to the brains of sensitive people. Tolle speaks and writes of mindfulness and being in the present moment, which is something that, in today's fast paced world, a lot of people don't do. It often leads to sleep difficulties, negative thoughts, lack of self-care and just a plain old stone cold heart, eventually.

So if you are a sensitive person (or even an HSP - highly-sensitive person), fear not because the world needs us. We are a special breed that keep the peace and wipe the tears and put on the bandaids while others kick sand our faces. It's not an easy job to be a sensitive person but it's a necessary one. Through knowledge and perseverance we can keep the balance of this world right. Through compassion and understanding we can make the world a better place. So wear your heart on your sleeve proudly but learn how to protect it from the elements. Shine up your chakras and keep them cleared, put those protective crystals in your pocket or around your neck or wrist and step up to the challenge of being sensitive. We are all here to support each other and love each other!


More interesting resources:
People react to being called beautiful
The Five Thinking Traps (Facebook link)
Gary Vaynerchuk YouTube (explicit language)
Ways to Lower Your Cortisol Levels and Your Anxiety
Things to Remember When You Are Having Negative Thoughts
Things to Remember When Going Through Tough Times